I had a fabulous Shiva Process Self-inquiry group last night. I think I’m really starting to get a hang of things. I’m thoroughly enjoying exploring my cattiness and the relationship between thought and feeling.
I arrived early and brought an offering with me for the puja (a flower that I had furtively seized from the other room). I left the flower in front of Durgananda’s chair as I couldn’t reach the puja and took the opportunity to sharpen my claws on her chair while she wasn’t looking, just in case they were needed during group. I wanted to be well prepared to battle any tearing thoughts or negative feeling that might arise. I then sat in my usually spot by the heater. I gave myself a good clean as I didn’t want to offend any vegetarians by having traces of dinner on me. Then I curled up into a loose ball – I’ve learnt in yoga, from the yoga sutra’s of Patanjali, that it’s important to have steady but comfortable posture – and meditated as people arrived. Natji came in and gave me a particularly warm welcome and I thought I probably won’t need my claws this evening.
I enjoyed the initial guided meditation immensely and was able to distinguish between the feeling in my energy centres and the feeling in the room. There was unprocessed feeling in the room but my space was clear and contented (though this may have been due to the fabulous dinner I had had earlier). After the meditation I opened my eyes to acknowledge the group and to let them know I was present to the room. Then I went back into my meditative state and supported the group by purrmeating the room with good feeling.
When it came my turn to play I only needed B and G-statements as I had no contractions in any of my centres. I often have a block in my navel which relates to not getting what I want but, this evening, I didn’t have that. The room gave me statements. Some of them were: ‘I feel warm and snug’, ‘my belly is full’, ‘I have everything I could possibly want’ and ‘I feel purrrfectly content’. Contentment is such a wonderful feeling. I think humans should practice contentment much more and take pleasure in the simple things in life like I do. A good meal, a warm room, good company and of course the Shakti. That is all you need for purrfect contentment.
The Group continued and, when we got to the end, they repeated the closing mantras. I had heard these mantras before but not paid much attention to them. Tonight I heard them – and I mean truly heard them – for the first time. They were about purrrring!! I couldn’t believe it, ancient Sanskrit mantras from the Upanishads that date back more than half a millennium before the Common Era, talked about the perfection of purring.
Om Purrr namadah,
I’ve translated this for you:
This, (the inner world) is purring.
That, (the outer world) is purring.
From purring comes more purring.
If purring is taken away from purring only the purring remains.
I think this has become my new favourite mantra. I’ve been repeating it every day and not even knowing its full meaning. I knew I purred when I felt content and I knew it was an expression of perfection but to learn that, in Sanskrit. Purna means, full, perfect and complete is truly a wonderful discovery. No wonder I feel the purrfect contentment of my inner Self when I purr!